To always have curiosity I think, I think your brain become very dull and repetative if you never learn new things and are intrested. Also to be with people I love ofcourse, and to feel helpful towards people in my life and just the earth in general. Like just donating to charities and learning, so you can spread information so people become less ignorant about other cultures and lifestyles.. I'd really love to help animals that are endangered but don't seem to get much attention becouse they aren't "popular enough", like amphibians and fishes.

That's right! What matters is that you are willing to improve your language. On topic, to be hardworking. I think I would be more satisfied with myself that way. Only when I accept myself can I truly be happy.

She is practising her english in the best way I think, by talking to people who speak english. That's how I learned english atleast ~

To be honest, this is the first time I've understood stuff the original poster has written. So I think she's doing a lot better in English .

Well on the average day I would say I value life. I have a incurable disease and a chronic one that makes life sometimes challenging. I have three kids my youngest is still in school. These past couple of years my condition has got worse but I keep on going. I at one point I thought about ending it all...not just because of the illness but just major stress too. I sat in a mall parking lot for I guess a couple of hours just crying and feeling sorry for myself and thinking about wrapping my car around a light poll. Until my mom called and I couldn't even talk to her. A place called "Call for Help" popped into my head and I called them. Not sure how I got the number even. I had someone to talk to. Then I called a local church/center (not even my religion) I had someone else to talk to. I then called my mom, then my kids. I felt better. My problems were still there but I felt like I could control them. I felt a weight lifted...I prayed a lot and asked God for answers. I never in my life had these kinds of thoughts before. I do want to see my loved ones in heaven someday and suicide I new was not the right path. I thought of my kids and my mom and just new I could not leave them. Today...I am close to losing my house, my medical bills are crazy, my power bill is to the roof but I still have my family that loves me and I love them...we will work it out...somehow I just have to believe that it will.